Full – Whole, complete, totality
Color – Spectrum, light, not black/gray, distinguishing characteristic
Psycho – from Greek psykhē “the soul, mind, spirit; life, one’s life, the invisible animating principle or entity which occupies and directs the physical body; understanding, the mind (as the seat of thought), faculty of reason”
“Full Color” describes my perspective/philosophy of the world
Full Color implies, not black and white. There is a dimensionality tethered to those two words’ collaboration.
Nothing is actually just black and white, you don’t reach true black/white till you reach infinity- absorption/reflection of all visible light. I believe theoretically, the existence of true black/white is nearly impossible, other than perhaps within a black hole (with our understanding of physics as it stands today), this is because the perfect absorption/reflection of light doesn’t exist in nature; it could probably be manufactured close enough for the difference to not matter (even though it still does by the very definition of the word difference in the first place), and the chance that it could occur naturally is infinitesimally small as well (but probably exists, or will exist in a handful of places considering the infinite expansion of the universe itself). The majority of our blacks/whites really are just shades of other colors at a vibrational level that our eyes are in capable of discerning.
This is the way the world is and that is the way that I choose to see it.
Literally and, yeah I’m sure you saw the idea hidden in there, metaphorically there is more than just black/white, there is more/less than merely a duality. We live in a world of full color and it’s important that one should keep that in mind when going about their business in it.
I say that because, while most people like to think they see the world in full color, they really don’t; this is of no fault of their own though– one doesn’t know what they’re ever missing until they experience the difference. Many don’t know that there’s a difference and they’re missing something until someone is kind enough to share that information with them or they discover it themselves (unlikely if they are not smart or actively looking). The rest of the time, for whatever reason, they don’t believe they’re missing something when told it exists due to their own overinflated self-confidence, lack of experience/knowledge/intelligence, pessimism, or the lies they’ve accepted and their inability to consider they may know/have been taught wrong/incorrectly/incompletely.
In my own experience the final group up above, “the rest of the time”, tends to be the majority when compared to me I’m afraid. I’ve noticed certain reactions when I share my thoughts/feelings/insights with the world, not sure why this is but I have pondered it for a long time; I’ve come to the conclusion that a portion of the time it’s the above reason and, until recently, it was a communication error on my end.
Once I noticed the communication error on my end, I instantly saw improvement in the quality of all my conversations/interactions. However, the portion of negative and positive reactions didn’t shift toward positive as much as I had hoped; While there was some improvement I was hoping for more, this made me realize how much is out of my control and truly up to the person who more often than not was going to be that way.
The certain reactions I’ve seen have led me to adopt the rest of my moniker.
I call myself “Psycho” before you can, because I am one
What do you think people call you when you tell them something exists or is the way it is when they have always experienced/been told the opposite?
Yeah, people tend to think the other person is the wrong one before they think they’re wrong and they think their anecdotal experiences are the be-all-end-all on something, anything really. People like to think they’re really smart and educated, well there was definitely some sort of information deposited in their brain. Most of you reading this probably automatically assume I’m not referring to you (some of you assumed I was referring to you). If it makes you feel better I’m not, I was referring to “people”. To make it absolutely clear, “People” are not smart when they think they are. I don’t speak on individuals unless I’ve met them, more often than not “person” is actually smart.
Maybe you haven’t experienced looks and reactions like you’re totally psycho. That’s because most of you probably do a really great part of playing the person you choose. Unfortunately for me, I have chosen to be someone who tends to be completely open and corrects others out of love because I believe knowledge is power and I have been blessed enough to accumulate knowledge through a constant study and experience that has benefited me and I would like to share that with others.
When I try to share information I know with others, they always tend to call me crazy, they are incapable (technically it’s really just unwilling) of understanding what I’m sharing with them.
It doesn’t help that, like I said above, I actually am a psycho; literally like the definition above but also likely in a psychiatric sense (though I don’t plan to ever be tested. Can’t be psycho if nobody comes to find out ha).
See, due to the way I was born and the sum of my life’s experiences I was definitely not socialized correctly. With a largely lonely and independent childhood along with the advent of consumer home internet, I was left to my own devices in more ways than one. This sowed a seed of inquisitiveness and exploration without shame from others that allowed my perception of the spectrum of the world around us to be whole, or at the very least with as unbiased/neutral outlook as an individual is capable of having of the world; an exceptional difference from the average person if I do say so myself..
Spending my time mostly alone, I had to learn to entertain myself. And while you may have gone the clean route in thinking ahead there that I spent most of my time playing video games, reading books, and watching TV (I did)– I very much also did end up with a porn/serotonin addiction from being a child with a computer to himself for hours growing up, but overall, it never really held me back.. or at least I was able to perform to an acceptable level despite it holding me back.
When they’re not watching porn, a kid with a computer explores interesting reaches of the known universe. Especially in those days when it was very much still like the wild west, new and without order, back then you could find anything before people started organizing it and deciding what was/wasn’t important. For whatever reason, my calling or hard-wiring perhaps, was to learn everything I could about everything and fortunate enough for me, I had a source that was raw and unfiltered to make sense of on my own.
As a child without others around to learn from, I wasn’t socialized or taught about the world well, there was nobody to imitate or around to experiment interacting with. There was still a way to learn anything and receive an answer to just about any question you could ask though and as you may have gathered from what was said above, that was with the internet.
In the end, I largely socialized myself, this is why I’m a psycho: I learned how to be a person through books and writing, I didn’t learn how to be a person on the playground or with friends, I didn’t have my parents around to teach me. It was also solely through my own trail and error that I have. While you did this as well to some extent, for a good amount of your life you likely had someone who you could talk through these things with whereas I had to go back to the drawing board and make sense of everything on my own (while this typically ends up taking longer, once a thorough understanding has been achieved through solely one’s own efforts [though not truly so], the individual is significantly/infinitely more capable of inferring things on their own by connecting the dots in their own understanding).
All that to say, as a result, I have objectively learned much more of the world than the lay person and, at that, to levels that most don’t care to ever go. Additionally, I didn’t understand how to properly communicate with others, let alone consider navigating their own point of view. Due to the combination of those two things, I often have had many long winded disagreements/debates with others that never end up with a conclusion because they often just give up. What happens is that I don’t allow my emotions to control my actions and I maintain a cool frame, but the other person begins to lose patience in the conversation because they were not fully ready to talk on the matter or do not know enough about the subject to be able to keep their claim on it’s legs; if they do happen to be well acquainted with the content in the discussion, then they often take offense that one could keep going in asking questions or producing scenarios for consideration to be addressed properly. Why should some “layperson” question them in their field after all? As is one of the laws of nature: at the very least, people dislike the things that are beyond their understanding.. even more so when they cannot see properly, or you cannot convey properly, why it should be of any importance to them.
There are many more scenarios of thought I could present, but the point of the matter is, nobody wants to discuss ideas/thoughts/concepts through to their conclusion, they get tired of thinking on it and they don’t want to dig deeper; especially when this concerns questioning the “norm” or “well substantiated” knowledge, sensitive subjects, or the world as they understand it.
I know that my lack of emotion and that what I’m doing often produces discomfort in others and I do it anyway. I would guess that that’s surely some form of psychotic.
So why do I want to be a Full Color Psycho?
It’s not wanting to be one, I AM one.
I know what I am and only I know me, you’re not a mind reader. I have told you exactly what I am and some things that contributed to my growth like this, which reveals that I am also self-aware.
If you know that you’re a psycho, or even know that people may call you one, why would you not change your way? Why continue to be that way?
Because of four reasons.
- Again, it’s who I am
- I think it’s really fun
- I’m doing you/myself a service
Why fight who I am?
That dissonance within myself would set people uneasy, they would feel that I was hiding something– everyone can feel when someone isn’t congruent.
It is really fun.
Mental debates are fun for me, a duel of the intellect if you will. If someone isn’t up to par, I get to dance circles around them. C’mon, you know the feeling I’m talking about in relation to the things that you’re really good at. Not in a nefarious way, but in a playful wholesome way– at least it’s that way on my end even if they have the emotional control of a child.
I really feel like I’m doing you/myself a service.
Whether you understand/like this, is irrelevant to me (unless you voice your desire to not continue; which I will likely respect without further question of course).
That may sound cruel or inconsiderate, but please allow me to explain why I believe that I’m doing you/myself a service and the value behind that service, then you may decide whether what I do is positive or negative.
I’m going to say again for reiteration, I TRULY feel as if I’m doing you/myself a service. This is the idea you have to wrap your head around. Most people believe that if another is taking a position across (you see I chose not to use the word opposite here) from themselves that this person is automatically “against” them in some way. For me personally, this is NOT the case, but due to my coordinates/positioning someone has already begun to think of me as “against” them or a.k.a. the “enemy”, for why should anyone ever say anything such as this that puts another before themselves? Of course I say everything after that last comma with a tinge of sarcasm, it’s understandable for sure– but unfortunately ALWYAYS unexpected; in my experience the assumption almost is ALWAYS made that another with a position different (not to say not similar even) than themselves is against them (which is true in a way, but there are multiple ways this is true and I’ve found most often people are pessimistic and often automatically/assumptively choose the negative point of view here).
I believe taking an opposing stance and/or questioning the words/knowledge of another is the most respectful thing that you may do for a being.
This is because it tests the validity and actual implications of what the others take to be true/valuable. It’s possible that I may bring them something they haven’t considered and they find something new to ponder in it. Maybe their take is something that they only align with shallowly, without truly being a part of it or taking action– mainly using it for a talking point or adopting it as an identity trait to conform with the masses.
Should one take up an idea or a stance they should really know about it. They should not make unsubstantiated claims, especially those that are false, that’s the other value I try to give you. Should you say something that’s incorrect, I cannot help but correct you. I don’t appreciate the spread of false/misconstrued information, pessimistic mindsets, or statements of assumption/jumping to conclusions.
Just like if you see litter in the streets you should pick it up and dispose of it properly, you should curb the spread of the above (false/misconstrued information, pessimistic mindsets, or statements of assumption/jumping to conclusions) properly should you have the opportunity. You’ll see that I said the word properly twice there, the proper way to dispose of litter is to place it in the proper bin rather than hit it with a flamethrower and the proper way to curb the spread of these things is politely and not by flat out telling someone that they’re wrong (that is until the point that you realize they will never consider that their position is not favorable to have).
The fact of the matter is, I don’t care that I may be considered a psycho
I’ve got a question for you, do you like being wrong? How would you feel if you later found out that you were responsible for spreading/perpetuating misinformation? You realize that most people are too “polite” to say something when people are incorrect right? Most people don’t care enough or find it rude to do so and just label someone as “dumb”, “inconsiderate”, or someone not worth listening to. All of this not to say that you’re wrong, but to pose the question, “If you were wrong or what you were doing was to your detriment, would you or would you not want someone to correct you?”. I’m sure most everyone that walks this Earth is smart enough that they wouldn’t want the latter (to not be corrected), but if they do I’d like to meet them, they must be quite the unique individual.
If it makes you feel better I treat everyone equally in that it doesn’t matter who is spouting nonsense, if it’s nonsense I’ll comment on it. I have to have conversations about it every chance I get so that I may get more practice in navigating that conversation when it comes up. I’ll never get good at articulating things if they only ever just sit in my head. Alternatively, through the discourse I ensue, it may come to light that I MYSELF was the one who was in the wrong, it was ME who needed to learn something; I always entertain this possibility (in fact, for most of my initial life this was the most likely the case). I can’t be the best human I can be and realize I’m wrong/learn from my mistakes/grow as a person without your help, I needed to be learned/taught and luckily I found you and became a better person through your kindness and knowledge. So please do me the honor/respect of telling me when I’m wrong. I would do the same for you.
Basically, think of me as being the 27th person you talked to before someone finally pulled you aside to tell you that your fly was down or that you had broccoli in your teeth. You’re embarrassed and probably upset (maybe even lashing out at the messenger) that it took this many people for someone to finally tell you about it, but in the end once your initial reaction has subsided I’m the person you’re most grateful toward.
I AM THE FULL COLOR PSYCHO
And now you have a little bit of an inkling as to why.
Just know that whatever I was saying I believed I was saying at least in your, if not both of our, best interests.
You don’t have to believe or trust what I say, you may take it as you will (as you should), what I say you may not actually have value for you at the current instance in your life. I just hope that maybe you may now understand that I do what I do because I believe that to be your best interests, and that because of that you will give it the attention and consideration that you may not have given it otherwise.
All the best,
FCP 🙃
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Before one should ever go around “awakening” others by sharing the information one knows, they should please consider their position and if that path is worth even going down, it often is not and isn’t fun until ones knows what one is doing.
“Awakening” another is like digging up weeds with longer/thicker roots dependent on when they were seeded there. This weed resides in the brain however, and could have been placed there by some meaningful person(s)/event(s) in that individual’s life. A good amount of them are difficult to remove, and they never come out willingly of their own free will. Non-metaphorically, it takes quite a tactful maneuver to remove them in a way that it pleasant/painless for the individual.
These are just the thoughts I speak of too, there is still the warm sleeping human under the covers that doesn’t want to leave the soft and warm comfort of their bed. While waking one up sweetly with the smell of coffee/breakfast or the sound of distant laughter is preferable– typically these situations are the type of metaphorical sleep that often require methods jumping on the bed, dousing them with ice water, or a swift removal of the comforter.
While these “methods” aren’t the “nicest”, they must be done lest our fellow human waste their day/life away without ever seeing the true beauty that it held. (Not to say that people are unable to see the beauty in their lives, but it is often that they don’t ever come to find the beauty beyond what they know.)